Emotions? what?

So, I have been informed that how I am actually doing would be something that others might be interested in hearing as part of my transition. Since there IS a lot that happens, and there has been a lot that has transpired in this (almost) week, I figure that that is a legitimate thing to add.

When I first arrived, and until about Tuesday, I was incredibly shy and quiet. I wasn't quite sure what to do with myself, and I felt so strange being in a new place. The whole, "Oh my God what the fuck am I doing?!" thought probably crossed my mind twice every moment. I talked to a friend about these feelings, and the talking helped, and I went to sleep on Monday night with the "ohmygod, ohmygod" thought getting quieter and quieter until i drifted off to sleep.

Tuesday, I had decided to to out and to explore a little bit. It was alright, and I felt very much more confident. I have been decreasingly experiencing panic, and am adjusting just fine so far, though I am very aware of culture shock and other "moving to a different area" type things that can happen when moving (thank God for all those communications courses!)

I finally told my roommate yesterday that I was just going crazy and that I was incredibly unstable emotionally for the first few days that I was here. I think that he felt bad, but I'm not sure that there was anything that he could have done. ...I think that I just needed some time. How was I emotionally unstable? Weeellllllll, every once in a while, I just started tearing up, and I just kept getting waves of thought that were just the whole "what am I doing?!" thing.

I am definitely okay now, and I know that I will be okay. ...if only I could find something to do with myself! The people who I have met here have been wonderful though. I haven't been put into any bad situations at all, and I have just been having fun. I am very thankful that my roommate is super cool and that *this* gets to be my first experience here. ...I'm not sure about having to find hookers for him, though...but I won't get into that (I hope that you don't read this, Joel!) other than to say it was mostly in fun...and curiosity.

Oh, and feel free to leave comments or to contact me with any questions or anything...I don't think that you have to be a member to comment or anything and junk...so I'm off to do whatever it is that people in Cincy do...until next time!