Since my last post was kind of emo...

I am resolving to be more positive.

I feel as though my actions lately have been odd, or somewhat out of character for me. I felt like some forboding cloud of ash loomed on my horizon, but I realize that this is not the case. I know that I have been somewhat evasive the past week or so, but I don't mean anything by it, other than that I am being introspective.

I talked to a girl at work on Tuesday or so and she recently moved to the area as well. She told me that if I find a place where there are friends, to let her know because she is looking for some. I thought that was odd. And I realized that I am sort of doing the same thing, just waiting for people to just appear in my life. What nonsense! I didn't do it on purpose, but now that I realize it, I'm plotting and scheming ways to make sure that I am conscious of getting out and doing things.

I sometimes feel like a cat who has wandered onto a doorstep. I sometimes feel like a mother or a maid, and realize that I am neither of those. I sometimes feel like I am being paranoid, but I know that these thoughts are silly.

I do feel an awkward bubble between entities in my life. It feels like a lava lamp, warm but not all bubbly... Whatever that means. I know that no matter what happens, everything will work itself out. And I know that I need to go out more... To interact and make new memories instead of re-processing old ones. If I handle those old ones too much, they will disintegrate and tarnish and become less special.

Hopefully the next time that I write you, dear reader, I will continue to be hopeful and perhaps I will have had a new adventure or met a new face. And I hope that you do, too...