When you have something profound come into your mind, you should write it down to not forget.

Coming to visit Iowa and South Dakota and seeing all of the people I left behind has been a very positive experience, even if some of the events that have taken place have been somewhat crazy.  I feel like this sojourn has come at the right time in my life.

Visiting here feels somewhat surreal.  Perhaps it's merely residual effects that I'm experiencing, but the walls that once sat so rigid and hollow now feel like they have depth and are living and maybe even breathing.

I like being reminded that people care about me and do miss me.  I like that people still put up with my nonsensical way of life.  I like being reminded of who I am, even if someone has to fly across an ocean for my mind to recall it.  My heart feels so very full right now, and I just want to share its contents with everyone.

I hate being quiet.  I hate that some people know me as a quiet person...I recall a time when I was a child...in the fourth grade...and one of my teachers had a conference with my parents.  She expressed her concern with my being quiet.  I remember being perplexed and I remember the way my parents laughed when they talked about it.  How absurd!  I feel like that scenario is just the same right now.  It is absurd that people think that I am a quiet person.  How can someone who is so expressive be so quiet?  I recall that I am a juxtaposition of structure and chaos.  I don't mean chaos like people running around and fires burning.  I feel like my chaos is more like a maypole and a wild dance that expresses deep connectivity with everything around.  Perhaps that's not juxtaposition.  Perhaps that's more like the golden ratio.

Regardless.  I am being reminded every second of what I am...and it feels like a cosmic explosion.  And I feel happy.  I feel as though I do not need a complex multi-faceted word to describe that feeling.  I am simply happy.  ...and I would like to thank everyone...EVERYONE who is any way in contact with me...for bringing me to this point.  I have arrived with such excitement and clarity that I can hardly contain myself...so I must go out into the world to share this with everyone.